Posting on being a victim

Ok, I'm coming back to this blog.

I'm in victim mode again today and what I believe is the more I think of being a victim the more I am. I could analyse and get more information about this and about my interactions with all these people / situations that I have been a victim around.

Ok so not only am i thinking this its got me and my head is a confused muddle, can you make sense of the action in the above paragraph. It's just a stab at solving the problem, not a very considered and grounded stab. Really, I've just been in a sort of desperate fix it mode.

Now ..so lets clear..

1. I am not in the past, i'm not the future, I'm just in the present.
2. i am only a victim because I allow it
3. I need to work on the triggers and how i get activated into this confused state
4. it will prob be very difficult and very emotional to work through all of this in one go i.e: work through all the transactions that make this happen, so...work on each person ... one at a time
   
5. I need to acknowledge that ... I am scared of myself and how I will confront these transactions knowing what i know. I am essentially afraid of triggering myself in these situations and therefore in avoidence of various situations and people
   
6. I could do with coping mechanisms and tactics for (5)
7. I could do with grounding myself with stronger roots for (5)
8. I will get very strong very soon, I am the rock

Ok

1. I need to work on the triggers and how i get activated into this confused state
2. Do a little every day on transactions and people
3. Work and develop strategies, coping and reprogramming for this
4. Keep a victim journal
5. listen to wayne dyers "Pulling Your Own Strings"
   

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